I know I’ve not writ­ten any­thing of con­se­quence in here yet. Life has con­spired in that fash­ion, as it always does at times like this, when I’d rather be writ­ing or play­ing or doing some­thing other than what I end up doing. Hear­ing about why I haven’t been here isn’t why you’re here, so we’ll just say that I’ll be rather spo­radic for a lit­tle while and please for­give me for that. Hear Hear.

One thing I have been doing in the time alloted is to do some research. This is, as I think I’ve said in some form or another, going to be a chron­i­cle of sorts on the sub­ject of the sex­u­al­ity of myself and my soon-to-be wife… — I think I’ve referred to her as my wife before here, but she is not that yet, and the event is one of the (most wel­come) time restric­tions in my life. Any­way… research.

I’m not lik­ing a lot of what I’m read­ing. Rather, I like a lot of what I’m read­ing but that’s not nec­es­sar­ily what I (we)… (Another digres­sion) — My wife… er… soon-to-be wife is. Ok, I’ll get to that… Here. Her name is A_____. There. More on that later also. But I’m going to be writ­ing in first-person. If A____ ever writes here, she will do the same.

Ok. So. Where was I… (oh yeah). What I’m read­ing out there in the land of “sex blogs” or “erotic” blogs or what­not fall out­side the scope of what I’d like this to be for a lot of rea­sons which I may or may not be able to artic­u­late here. I can’t even tell you in a con­cise man­ner what this is going to be, yet. Here are a few things I can tell you.

This IS NOT going to be a link farm. Although I would like traf­fic, mov­ing towards adver­tis­ing, mov­ing towards mak­ing money I am a patient man and plan to be very selec­tive about the con­tent I link to. One thing that’ really both­ered me in my research so far are find­ing blogs and jour­nals so rid­dled with adver­tis­ing that I can’t eas­ily find the con­tent, or dis­tin­guish it from the the adver­tise­ments. When I adver­tise some­thing here, you’ll know it. Fur­ther­more, you will always be able to find the con­tent. Lastly, there will ALWAYS be MORE con­tent than adver­tis­ing on this site.

I’m not sure how exactly I’m going to approach the things I’d like to talk about here, but I do know that what I tell you here will be true. I was dis­ap­pointed to dis­cover after read­ing a blog for a few days that the author says “This is ALL fic­tion.” Not that I won’t read it any­more, but it was a site that was being billed as someone’s life. When I read the fic­tion part the voyeur in me was, well, a bit upset.

In the above men­tioned vein: I’m not going to lie or make stuff up here. I don’t feel like I need to in order to make this an inter­est­ing read. I feel like if I talk about my sex­u­al­ity and the expe­ri­ences that fol­low hon­estly, and include some of the rel­e­vant thoughts that tra­verse my head, this will be a place worth vis­it­ing again, if only to see what hap­pens next.

Although it should be said, and I’ll make the nec­es­sary adjust­ments to the blog soon, that THIS BLOG CONTAINS ADULT SUBJECT MATTER and blah blah blah, I am hop­ing to be mind­ful of the lan­guage that I use here. Not for any other rea­son than I don’t like bad lan­guage — swear­ing — very much, and I find the “lan­guage of sex” to be vul­gar, mis­lead­ing and dis­ap­point­ing. But I’ll be dis­cussing this par­tic­u­lar bit at length some other time.

What else.…

Oh, I’m not going to give you names or iden­ti­fi­ca­tion or any­thing like that. I believe that part of my abil­ity to be open, vul­ner­a­ble if you will, in a forum like this requires that I pro­tect with anonymity every­one involved. Myself included. I’m not going to be all spy-speak and code geek on you. I hope to give you more than enough to know who I am (at least, this aspect of me). But really I don’t want to — inten­tion­ally or oth­er­wise — meet any read­ers socially at this point. Kudos to the writ­ers who are “open books” like that. I am not cur­rently one of them.

As A___ would say; this lit­tle part of the inter­net is our Bed­room Closet.

Off to sleep for now. Good night

- S____