I am usu­ally on the end of the leash. I like it that way. S___ likes it that way, but on occa­sion, as he said, there will be a switch, one in which he is tied up down or across, where I am hold­ing the crop, where he does what he is told. These moments aren’t the every­day, I’m not sure that I could be dom­i­nate all off the time. At work today though I received a series of pic­tures, which imme­di­ately made my nip­ples hard, panties wet, and had me ready to go home and see them in per­son imme­di­ately. He’s such a bad boy, teas­ing me this way. He deserves a sound spanking.

We received a com­ment here a while back about me feel­ing sub­mis­sive from time to time. It was from a woman who was also more that way (s) but had a boyfriend who wanted to be dom­i­nated.… Ok. I’ll stop try­ing to paraphrase:

“I really enjoy read­ing about sex from a male sub per­spec­tive, because I’m sub, and female, and I know that my guy would appre­ci­ate a switch some night, but…I don’t know if I could be con­fi­dent enough to do it.”

The com­ment got me think­ing because “switch­ing” is really no prob­lem for me; I feel like I fall into both roles well. If i had to choose one I would say that I’m more dom­i­nant than not, but there are times when I really want to put on the col­lar and crawl and get bound and… well, used. I like it. And as I sit here now and think about it I don’t know why I’m com­fort­able in both roles, or if I’m less the other as a result.

I think it is sim­ply a frame of mind with each “role” hav­ing its manifestations.

We’ve recently been in a blog exchange that seems to be going the way of me dom­i­nat­ing two women. They steered it that way — I didn’t. But the idea of it makes my insides go to jelly. I think I would per­form in that role — dom­i­nate — to their sat­is­fac­tion. On the other hand, I’ve been falling into a sub­mis­sive mind­set this whole week, which cul­mi­nated in a series of phone pic­tures sent to A___ of me pro­gres­sively more bound until my arms were teth­ered to my thighs, my col­lar was leased to my balls, and I had a dildo in my mouth (maybe A___ could be con­vinced to post the pic­tures). I could just as eas­ily rewrite the blog exchange with these same two women dom­i­nat­ing me. I think I would fill the sub­mis­sive role to their satisfaction.

So I don’t know. I guess it’s been on my mind. I’ll write more when I fig­ure it out.