Bedroom Closet

I am usually on the end of the leash. I like it that way. S___ likes it that way, but on occasion, as he said, there will be a switch, one in which he is tied up down or across, where I am holding the crop, where he does what he is told. These moments aren’t the everyday, I’m not sure that I could be dominate all off the time. At work today though I received a series of pictures, which immediately made my nipples hard, panties wet, and had me ready to go home and see them in person immediately. He’s such a bad boy, teasing me this way. He deserves a sound spanking.

We received a comment here a while back about me feeling submissive from time to time. It was from a woman who was also more that way (s) but had a boyfriend who wanted to be dominated…. Ok. I’ll stop trying to paraphrase:

“I really enjoy reading about sex from a male sub perspective, because I’m sub, and female, and I know that my guy would appreciate a switch some night, but…I don’t know if I could be confident enough to do it.”

The comment got me thinking because “switching” is really no problem for me; I feel like I fall into both roles well. If i had to choose one I would say that I’m more dominant than not, but there are times when I really want to put on the collar and crawl and get bound and… well, used. I like it. And as I sit here now and think about it I don’t know why I’m comfortable in both roles, or if I’m less the other as a result.

I think it is simply a frame of mind with each “role” having its manifestations.

We’ve recently been in a blog exchange that seems to be going the way of me dominating two women. They steered it that way – I didn’t. But the idea of it makes my insides go to jelly. I think I would perform in that role – dominate – to their satisfaction. On the other hand, I’ve been falling into a submissive mindset this whole week, which culminated in a series of phone pictures sent to A___ of me progressively more bound until my arms were tethered to my thighs, my collar was leased to my balls, and I had a dildo in my mouth (maybe A___ could be convinced to post the pictures). I could just as easily rewrite the blog exchange with these same two women dominating me. I think I would fill the submissive role to their satisfaction.

So I don’t know. I guess it’s been on my mind. I’ll write more when I figure it out.