For every action there is an equal but oppo­site reac­tion. This sums up S___ after being tied up for a bit. This means that when I give, I bet­ter get ready to recieve. He isn’t bad at tak­ing orders, he just wants more of them nor­mally, I on the other hand pre­fer to request but have no prob­lem giv­ing a bit of pun­ish­ment if I’m not pleased. Exam­ple being, last night.

S___ joined me in the shower, after get­ting every­thing ready in the house as I requested. He had a bit of an atti­tude though, first insist­ing we had enough tow­els, then laugh­ing slightly at me while he said I had a hard time con­trol­ling him. As I said, I pre­fer to ask, but this lippy atti­tude of his told me he needed a lit­tle more aggres­sive han­dling. Once we had stepped out of the shower, he was to dry me off. Another ques­tion­ing com­ment had me grab­bing the back of his head by the hair and push­ing him to his hands and knees on the bath­room floor. S___ got a lit­tle more com­pli­ant after that, pay­ing imme­di­ate atten­tion to my freshly shaved pussy, and stay­ing on all fours, know­ing I would tell him when to get up. “Just because I smile and laugh doesn’t mean I’m not in charge right now.” I whis­per in his ear. A few hard slaps on his ass, so eas­ily applied with him on his knees like that left a cou­ple red hand shaped reminders that I still held the leash. Into the bed­room we went and S___ was strapped to the bed. Rid­ing crop, lead­ing his head, putting him where I wanted him. I love rid­ing S___ when he is strapped down, unable to use his hands or mouth, unable to move his legs, just rid­ing him until I come and then rolling off to tease him a bit. This went on for awhile until the sub­ject of him using my dildo came up. A few min­utes of talk­ing, teas­ing, play­ing, and I am rid­ing him while he has my dildo in his ass. I have seen S___ in var­i­ous states of plea­sure, I have given him many of them, but I am not sure that I have seen him cum so hard. I watch his face as I move up and down his cock, the motion of it mov­ing the dildo inside him. I feel him explode inside of me, he is shak­ing from it all. Spent for the night (I naievely thought) I take the col­lar off.

This is where I find S___ shifts, when­ever he has been col­lared and used he is more intense, more aggres­sive, much more force­ful, I always find myself ner­vous at these times, not sure of what he will do, but it’s always a good ner­vous, an anx­i­ety that makes me wet. Before I can recover from the ear­lier evene­ings activ­i­ties I find the col­lar on me. I am teth­ered by my neck to the cor­ner of the bed while S___ shoves our big dildo inside me, alter­nat­ing shov­ing his cock down my throat and lick­ing my already stuffed cunt. Flipped over and fucked hard from behind, being pinned down and him pound­ing me into the bed. Tur­ing me back over and hold­ing my hair, mov­ing my head so that he has access to my neck and ears, bit­ing my nip­ples as he moves the bed from fuck­ing me. Things blur with so much activ­ity but the reminders are still with me today. I said some­thing, some­thing lippy, some­thing I would have spanked him for, I don’t even real­ize it until he has me pulled over his knees, ass in the air and is spank­ing me hard with his hand, then the crop. S___ starts to shove the dildo inside me again and I beg him not too, I am sore from being used so hard. He alter­nates until I apol­o­gize, hand, crop, hand. I apol­o­gize again, I tell him I’ll be good, I tell him I’ll do what­ever he wants, I just need a rest, I can’t have any­thing else in my pussy, I beg him. S___ under­stands, he grants my request, after all he says, he still has my mouth and the rest of the weekend.