(tempt­ing to send, an ex-friend, ex-lover, who changed and I don’t know why)

–J___

Return­ing your books. Thank you, I enjoyed them as did S___. See­ing that we dont really talk much any­more I wanted to take this oppor­tu­nity to tell you a cou­ple of things.

I always enjoyed the times we had together, but to be hon­est the times I think about the most, in a way miss the most are the times we wound up in bed. I’d say we were bet­ter friends than that but hon­estly I think if we had just been lovers it would have been better.

I think on occa­sion about you and I in the bath­room, friends laugh­ing just out­side the door as we kiss. You pin­ning me against the sink as your hands find my breasts. Deep kisses with your soft mouth. Both of us know­ing where to touch each other. In my mem­o­ries S___ is not promi­nent. It’s you and I on the bed, your face between my legs lick­ing me, your fin­gers inside me, fuck­ing me harder and harder. I remem­ber tak­ing your small hard nip­ples in my mouth as I played with your pussy, my fin­gers slip­ping between its wet folds, so cleanly shaven, so unnec­es­sar­ily adorned. S___ fuck­ing me as I bury myself in your pussy, you seem­ing to be wait­ing your turn. Remem­ber me mount­ing you instead, climb­ing on top, us kiss­ing as I use my hand to make you cum. You moaned, you shook, you fell asleep wrapped in my arms.

So many times, secret touches, stolen kisses, get­ting drunk and tak­ing pic­ture. Such good times.

It’s unfor­tu­nate that you are miss­ing the times now. I know some of the things you like. I know we would have fun with our toys and ties. I can imag­ine you lik­ing to use the crop, and hav­ing it used. We both play so well, S___ would prob­a­bly give the orders at first, find­ing the images he likes. I can see us in our boots and skirts, hands and knees in front of his cock, both of us ordered to suck, one gets a pussy, one gets a penis.

Such fun we would have had, danc­ing, drink­ing, being the show. Bondage nights, trashy bars, mak­ing out in the hall as we had done so many times.

Life changes though I guess, and I return your books, and now we don’t talk. It is unfor­tu­nate but not some­thing I cant get over. I always have S___, and maybe that was the prob­lem. You were dis­pens­able, you knew it even though we never treated you as such.

Good­bye J____, enjoy your books.

A___

Suck­ing his cock while he is asleep is one of my favorite things.  Not fully hard I can take him all the way into my mouth, suck­ing hard to feel him grow.  Soon I cant take all of it down any­more.  His move­ment has just been to make it eas­ier for me, uncon­sciously he obeys when I climb down and push his legs fur­ther apart.  I am remem­ber­ing my cum cov­ered nip­ples, remem­ber­ing my dreams.  This morn­ing I am want­ing all of him.  I lick and kiss his inner thighs, I neglect noth­ing.  His balls get spe­cial atten­tion this morn­ing.  Lift­ing them with my hand to lick under­neath and around.  I take them into my mouth gen­tly, suck­ing them, play­ing with them with my tongue.  I tease his ass hole with fin­gers and tongue before tak­ing his cock deep within my mouth again and he becomes more active.

Rolling to his side, push­ing me into place he gen­tly fucks my mouth.  I love the use, I want him to use me how ever he wishes.  He pulls me up to him, remem­ber­ing last night and is suck­ing my nip­ples again, press­ing his cock against me.  I think how easy he would be inside me with­out my night pants on.  His hard­ness is amaz­ing.  He wants me to cum, its been too long, he tells me to use my hands.  I resist at first, then gen­tly start to rub, only the very top of my pussy, just pres­sure a lit­tle move­ment.  He is suck­ing harder and harder when I cum.  Vir­tu­ally scream­ing as waves shoot through me, my body shakes, I can barely con­trol it, I feel like I could cry as he con­tin­ues his atten­tion, keep­ing pres­sure between my legs and his mouth on my nipples.

When I fin­ish he cums again, I am always amazed at how much he can cum, one after another.  It always seems if I want more it’s ready.  He cums on my face as I eagerly lick his cock, want­ing it all.  Con­ver­sa­tions start again, my hands wan­der, and we decide if we are leav­ing the bed at all today it bet­ter be now.

I could have kept him there, my hand on his cock, his mouth on my nipple…all day would have suited me fine.  But this way my pat­tern just begins again as I look at him and get wet think­ing about him cum­ming at least a cou­ple more times before tomorrow.

The past few days I have been insa­tiable.  Every morn­ing start­ing with S___ in my mouth; the evenings pent up, cum on, beg­ging for more; every night more dreams with me wak­ing in such a mood to  begin them again.

I can’t get enough of his cock lately.  My mouth was full of him again last night, hands full, my face buried, feel­ing his balls against my face, his hands in my hair.  I wanted to do so much more.  The talk of ear­lier had me boil­ing, cock in my mouth, balls in my hand, my fin­gers mas­sag­ing around his tight ass.  I imag­ine him fuck­ing him­self as he does on occa­sion, I almost ask him to show me again.  I remem­ber the last time, never had I seen him cum so hard.  Fill­ing my mouth we both roll apart, spent for only minutes.

My nip­ples are still so hard, my pussy so wet.  He begins to suck again pulling each one with his mouth, all I want is for him to con­tinue.  I feel the buildup in my body, my breath quick­ens, I am almost cum­ming as he sucks them, he wants me to have release.  He moves above me again, I love see­ing him like this, so pow­er­ful, sexy, dom­i­nant with­out need­ing to try.  He holds my arms above me as he alter­nates his cock between my mouth and his other hand.  Cum cov­ers my chest, warm, vis­cous.  Squirm­ing, moan­ing, he plays with me still, fin­ger­tips run through his cum and offer it to my mouth.  I suck his fin­gers hun­grily.  With one fin­ger he coats each nip­ple with his cum, trac­ing around it, cov­er­ing it com­pletely, mak­ing them harder than I have ever felt.  I’m dizzy, things blur, I cum in dif­fer­ent ways, wet­ter than ever before.

He takes me to the shower and I am still in waves, feel­ing my wet­ness drip down my leg, his cum dry­ing, hard­en­ing, turn­ing my nip­ple into hard cum cov­ered candies.

This was from last night… I filled in the blanks as I could…explained as well as I can…and am still wet and ready just from the memory.

It was one of those dreams that is kind of float­ing, only cer­tain things stand out, pre­cise loca­tions, feel­ings, col­ors. It began in a huge white claw­foot bath­tub, I am soak­ing alone, steam ris­ing around me. I feel a hand on my shoul­der and have a blind­fold slipped over my eyes, tied securely, block­ing all vision. My dream self can only feel, I can see what is hap­pen­ing in the dream, but with lim­its, like puz­zle pieces. Some­one gets into the tub with me, I feel their hands on my knees, gen­tly open­ing them. I reach out, unable to see and they let go and pull away. I under­stand and keep my hands to my side, I’m not sup­posed to touch. Again they sep­a­rate my knees and I feel a hand slid­ing down my thigh, the water makes it hard to dis­tin­guish who’s hand. Fin­gers play with my clit, slowly slide inside me, deeper, two now, deeper than i am accus­tomed too. I gasp and they slide out and the hand moves away.

I am being lifted, coaxed to rise from behind, pulled up gen­tly by my elbows and seated on the edge of the tub on the end, feet and calves still in the water. I cant tell if there is more than one per­son, it is so quiet, I didnt hear an exit out of the tub but there was no indi­ca­tion of any­one else in the room. My legs are spread again by gen­tle hand, fur­ther than before then lifted out of the tub and set on the ground, I am sit­ting on the edge, legs spread wide, totally exposed, arms at my side. I feel a mouth on my pussy, my legs are so wide my thighs feel noth­ing, only a mouth, lick­ing, kiss­ing, it’s tongue div­ing into me, i can feel the rest of their face pressed into me while their tongue works inside, mouth open suck­ing, tak­ing my whole pussy in, labia, clit, every part of me in their mouth. I feel as though I might pass out. I breath heav­ily and try to stay upright. Fin­gers pinch my nip­ples, pull them gen­tly, a hand cups my breast as the mouth on my pussy con­tin­ues. I breath harder and harder, whim­per, about to cum when they stop, hands still work at my breast, this time a mouth joins in, suck­ing my nip­ples hard in turn, caus­ing me such plea­sure and pain at the same time. My hands reach up again, invol­un­tar­ily, and activ­ity stops. Quickly I place them back down, I do not want this to stop.

My legs are closed again, I still cant tell, are there two sets of hands? I am stood up and helped to step out of the tub. A hand on the small of my back guides me to what feels like a bed, low, on the ground. I am seated. Hands tucked beside me. Soft­ness on my cheek, rubbed against my lips, down my neck, finally into my mouth. A hard long cock slips inside my wait­ing mouth, I hun­grily suck it, excited to know more of my host. I am gen­tly laid back on the bed and feel his hand over my body, around my breasts, slip­ping between my legs, again they are parted and that mouth begins to lick my pussy. I am already so wet, I hear him lap­ping me up, suck­ing my wet­ness into his mouth. My back arches, my mouth open, tak­ing in all the breath I can when I am sur­prised by a cock being placed inside. I suck, I lick, I know that it isn’t pos­si­ble for the one fuck­ing me with their mouth to also be in mine. I feel his balls on my chin, I lick and suck them into my mouth as well. Fin­gers have replaced the tongue in my pussy and once again I am about to cum and they stop. I whim­per. Kisses cover me as his cock is taken from my mouth, each nip­ple has a mouth suck­ing it and I have never felt such plea­sure. Mouths move down, kiss­ing their way to my pussy, kiss­ing each other as they tease me just a bit. My legs are spread and I feel myself being filled, Long hard cock, slip­ping eas­ily inside my soaked pussy, I feel a hand. Work­ing his shaft as he fucks me, play­ing with my pussy as I am impaled by his cock. I can’t hold off any longer, each nip­ple sucked by a mouth again, i explode, cum­ming hard, my already soaked pussy becom­ing even wet­ter. Pant­ing, hard to breath, shak­ing, I am not let go. Flipped over to my tummy then lifted to my hands and knees I am entered again. As he fucks me from behind I feel the oth­ers mouth, luck­ing us both from under­neath, tast­ing cock and pussy com­bined. He fucks me harder, deeper, faster, get­ting closer to cli­max and I feel the other body slid­ing under mine. More lips suck­ing my breasts, then I am being kissed, their tongue force­ful, invad­ing my mouth, suck­ing my lips then mov­ing on.

My head is pulled down and my mouth meets another hard cock. Obvi­ously not the one that was fuck­ing me from behind. My mouth is being fucked as I am being pounded from behind. Soon both cum. My mouth is filled to over­flow­ing, I swal­low as much as I can but still find cum drip­ping down my face, my pussy is over­flow­ing with my wet­ness and his cum. Both cocks pull away and I am left, exhausted. I lie on my back, unaware of where the other two are and feel my legs opened again. I am exhausted but can feel that I would cum again with a touch. I relax and let the hands spread my legs wide. Their mouth begins to lick the juices from my inner thighs and then suck my pussy, the one doing this is a s cum hun­gry as me as they lick deeper and deeper, until before I know it i am com­ing again, soak­ing their face. I feel their body move up mine and kiss me, very gen­tly, get­ting my face equally wet.

They move down to my breast, cov­er­ing them in the same mix­ture of wet sex. More move­ment and I feel them above me again and open my mouth to take in their cock, I am sur­prised when I find a pussy hov­er­ing over my mouth instead. Three have been busy on me and only two sat­is­fied. My tongue dives into her pussy, lick­ing every fold, teas­ing her clit. I can not keep my hands to myself any­more and a reach up and grab her ass, push­ing her pussy fur­ther onto my face, I am buried in it as she moans. She sums quickly, get­ting my face as wet as I must have got­ten hers and climb to my side. Again I am rolled to my stom­ach and pulled to all fours. All mouths cover me now, one suck­ing my nip­ples, one kiss­ing my face and neck, and one lick­ing my pussy from behind, work­ing up to my ass, mak­ing me pant and beg. The tongue lick­ing my ass con­tin­ues and I feel a fin­ger slip inside the tight hole. I dont know what to do, it feels so good, but so new. Another hand takes over the front and is fuck­ing my pussy, fin­gers slid­ing in and out of me dif­fer­ent places, same time. I am dizzy with the feel­ing. She comes in front of me and places my mouth on her breasts, I move nip­ple to nip­ple, they are hard and lus­cious, I suck as she holds me head there, she is strong and gen­tle at the same time. As I suck her nip­ple, i am still being fucked by fin­gers both in my ass and pussy. I squirm as they stop and hold my breath when I feel a tongue return to my ass, soak­ing it, and then feel the tip of a cock pressed against it.

She sees me stiffen and moves to kiss me, as she holds my face, kiss­ing me deeply, forc­ing her tongue fur­ther inside my mouth he pushes into me. I have never felt such a thing, I feel faint, I am dizzy from pain and plea­sure. She moves me back to suck­ing her nip­ple, forc­ing me to focus, she breathes so heav­ily, I feel she may cum just from being a part of this. He slowly fucks my ass, groan­ing, try­ing not to be too hard but want­ing to pound me. I feel the oth­ers mouth, lick­ing his cock, keep­ing my ass wet, and then he moves towards the other woman. Slowly I am still being fucked but he is pick­ing up speed, it feels amaz­ing, so full, pain and plea­sure at its peak. Soon he cant con­trol it and is fuck­ing me full force, I whim­per and she hold my head, turn­ing it to the oth­ers cock, eagerly wait­ing atten­tion. As I suck, I am pushed harder and harder until he pulls out of my ass and cums all over my back. Quickly the other turns me over, lies me on my back and moves to fuck my pussy, he is quick, he pounds into me and I cum again, still feel­ing the other cock, hav­ing my pussy filled, hav­ing her suck my nip­ples, I am melted. I cum hard, shak­ing as he pulls out and cums all over my stomach.

I lie their limp as I feel her lick­ing me, suck­ing up all the cum spilt on me moments ago. as she moves up she gives my nip­ples one last tiny bite before sit­ting on my face and fuck­ing it as every­thing else had been fucked. She wanted to cum, she knew how, my head was guided moved, pulled, she mas­tur­bated with my face, my tongue putting the fin­ish­ing touches on her own work. She came scream­ing and climbed off of me.

All was quiet I lie there, cov­ered in cum. Thor­oughly fucked, com­pletely will­ing to be sur­prised. Once i could move again I reached for my blindfold…

The air in the room is cool, our hands move under the blan­kets, asleep, I’m still halfway in a dream, luck­ily it works per­fectly. Both of us grop­ing, feel­ing, fin­ger­ing. My hand on his cock, his on my ass, rolling over each other, push­ing into each other, both in a dream. His penis so hard and warm, we both stroke it, images in my head dont match. In my dream the cock is in my mouth, but here it is in my hand. I am so wet, want­ing so much, unable to ful­fill.  My legs wrap around his and his hands are on my breast.  My head tells me hands are spread­ing my legs, but here they are grab­bing my ass.  Both visions col­lide and I am more awake than asleep.  “You should take of my shirt, feed me your cock, and cum on me” I whis­per while kiss­ing his ear, I sur­prise myself, I’m not usu­ally so ver­bal.  I am crushed by a kiss then pulled on top of him.  My shirt is stripped off, nip­ples sucked, then rolled back over.  I look up to this tall gor­geous body, this long hard penis, and he takes my head in one hand and his cock in the other, gen­tly feed­ing it to me, tilt­ing my head so the it eas­ily slides in and out, a gen­tle pace, but one with pur­pose.  The phone rings and we both know we have lim­ited time.  S___ releases my head and mas­sages my breasts, bring­ing the nip­ples to atten­tion as he begins to stroke his cock.  Faster and faster his hand moves, mas­tur­bat­ing on top of me, using my mouth and breasts on occa­sion, until he cums, spilling all over my chest, warm and slip­pery, I lick a lit­tle off my mouth.  “Good morn­ing.” he says with a grin, and is off to work late again.

S___ works close to home. He came home for cof­fee yes­ter­day, he got more than that. We were sit­ting on the couch and he began play­ing with my nip­ples, barely brush­ing them, keep­ing them atten­tive, quite absent­mind­edly almost. “Keep doing what you were doing” he said when I turned my atten­tion to him. I went back to my book, I was per­fectly happy with the situation.

Soon after he takes my book from me, sets it on the table and lies me down on the couch, kiss­ing my mouth, my neck, hands mov­ing up my shirt. I feel him hard through his jeans. His weight on top of me feels fan­tas­tic, he is fuck­ing me through both of our clothes and I feel myself get­ting more and more wet. “I’m going to take you into the bed­room and cum on you.” Very pre­cise, direct, but gen­tle, exactly what I want lately.

We go to the bed­room and S___ pulls off my shirt and removes his clothes. Slowly I suck his cock, enjoy­ing every moment, then he tells me to decide where I want him to cum. “You decide.” S___ must have wanted to cum on my face because I feel those famil­iar hands push­ing back down, hold­ing me at the base of his cock, get­ting a close view of him plea­sur­ing him­self, so close to let­ting go. Once again I cant take it and catch his cock in my mouth right as he cums…I cant get enough of it lately, the taste, the warmth in my mouth, feel­ing his cock pulse as he goes rigid for that one moment of release. Lazily he gets up after awhile and gets dressed to return to work.

I always man­age to make him late.

As we lie there after S___ came the first time I cant keep my hands off of him. My hand plays with his penis, half hard from being worked so hard only moments ago. I take it in my hand, I mas­sage his balls, I let my hands wan­der over his body as they should have that morn­ing.

I want him so badly, I want him to fill me, I want him in so many ways, but right now I cant. I ache. Now I move S___ I bring his mouth to mine and kiss him deeply, his hands move over my back, my shoul­ders, my ass. They feel incred­i­ble. I want more. S___ is kiss­ing me on the neck when I move him down and place my nip­ple in his mouth. He is kiss­ing, lick­ing and suck­ing, my nip­ples are so sen­si­tive, I feel as if I might burst. He moves to the other one, it is hard as a rock, jut­ting out for the same atten­tion. S___ draws it into his mouth suck­ing hard, I cup my breast in my hand and help him, I cant get enough, he is suck­ing with rel­ish. All the while I have brought his cock to full hard­ness again. It feels so smooth, so hard and long, I want to feel it all over me. I rub it against my thighs, my belly, keep­ing it hard in my hands, feel­ing it swell more each minute. S___ has gone back to the other nip­ple, he is vora­cious, and I oblige, he sucks harder, draw­ing more of my breast into his mouth, my nip­ples are sore from all of the atten­tion but I dont want him to stop. I moan as I tell him to get on top of me, I want to feel his cock. S___ strad­dles me and rubs his cock on my breasts, I stretch o take the tip in my mouth as he pushes my breasts together and fucks them. My nip­ples still throb as he plays with them while slid­ing in between. I lick the tip when it comes close, tast­ing the cum from just before.

S___ lies back and I crawl up, plac­ing my aching nip­ples in his mouth again I groan as he pulls each one in turn. Climb­ing back down I brush them against his body until I am at his cock again and he is fuck­ing my breasts again. I know he needs more, so I begin to suck him again, this time it’s not about force, it’s about me want­ing him to cum, want­ing to feel release through him. I alter­nate between suck­ing and stroking when he takes over, hold­ing my head at the base of his cock, I want to feel his cum but at the last minute I change my mind and take him into my mouth as he lets go, tak­ing every drop down. I want his cum to fill me, and this is the way it can.

Tonight though, tonight may be dif­fer­ent. My nip­ples are still hard, still sore, but crave more atten­tion, and the mix of being dom­i­nated and pun­ished, and gen­tly touched and sucked leaves me want­ing both, want­ing the orders, want­ing to be con­trolled but in a gen­tle way.  Tied up in silk instead of twine you might say, then my body is a play­ground for him to cum on.

I had been neglect­ing S___.  I hadn’t made sure he had got­ten what he needs even though I am tem­porar­ily unavail­able for play.  He reminded me of this last night.

We were on the couch when I leaned over to lay on him a bit,  S___ took this oppor­tu­nity to begin his les­son on what hap­pens when he is ignored.  My head is in his hands, face roughly held against the bulge in his jeans as he pulls his cock out to shove in my mouth.  I under­stand his need, I suck heartily, I lick, I kiss, I try to make up for the days I haven’t been doing this, he does not release his hold on me though.   S___ pulls me up by my hair and leads me to the bed­room.  He pushes me onto the bed and strips off my shirt then holds me there as he fully removes his pants. He pulls me to the bed between his legs, shov­ing his cock in my mouth again.  It seems, huge, my mouth is so full I’m not sure I can take more when I feel a smack.  He has the rid­ing crop. Three times he swats before he pulls me up next to him.  “You’ve been ignor­ing me…” he purrs.  “I’m sorry, I’m so sorry.” I whim­per.  “I know, and I liked your posts, thats why you only got spanked three times.”

S___ kisses me and pushes me back down, fuck­ing my face, using it for his release.  Once he was done cum­ming he pulls me up beside him again and curls around me, again shap­ing me to his needs using those won­der­ful hands.  Gen­tle and sweet as a kit­ten.  I’m glad he had his release, I know I deserved my spank­ing, and as we curled up I kept play­ing with him, let­ting him know that I wanted him still, and that I would find ways to fuck him while I’m off limits.

S___ got me a few books for the hol­i­day, he also knows I love erotic writ­ing. So today, I’m home, just enjoy­ing myself with a good book.

Often I see the weeks ahead and plan, I’m excited, I want to con­trol every part. Life, is not like that.

This morn­ing I lay there as S___’s hands gen­tly roamed my body, across my shoul­der, firm on my back, caress­ing my breast, mov­ing my body so that it con­formed to his. Every touch felt amaz­ing, the warmth, the smooth­ness. I could have had him touch me like that all day. I would have done the same to him. I can feel his body, my hands slid­ing over his back, hands around his strong shoul­ders, mov­ing across his chest down over his flat stom­ach. Slowly mov­ing down, qui­etly unty­ing the draw­string, slip­ping inside his pants to his warm, already hard cock. Tak­ing time to touch each leg, a gen­tle rub before mov­ing back to that warm space between his thigh and balls. Cup­ping them in my hand, feel­ing their weight and warmth.

I can hear him take in a breath as I turn my atten­tion more fully to his penis. Wrap­ping my hand around it, slowly stroking up and down, then let­ting go. I trace the shape with my fin­ger­tips, admir­ing the length, the hard­ness, paus­ing at the head, trac­ing it’s out­line more throughly. By now touch­ing isn’t enough. As I kiss my way down his chest, across his stom­ach he intakes his breath again sharply, his back arches slightly, and I find my lips kiss­ing the base of his cock. Gen­tle kisses to cover it first, but I soon want more. My tongue begins at the base and moves up to the head, stop­ping to lick the tiny drop of cum that has formed before I take him all the way into my mouth. I take him as far as i can as he groans, mov­ing his hands to my head, tan­gle­ing his fin­gers in my hair as I move his cock in and out of my mouth, suck­ing a bit harder with every motion. I release him and he sighs, until I hear another breath as I take his balls gen­tly in my mouth as my hand returns to his cock. Lick­ing and suck­ing gen­tly I feel him get harder and I move back to suck­ing his cock, switch­ing my hand to his balls, keep­ing them mas­saged, feel­ing them tighten as he gets closer to cumming.

Finally release, and he fills my mouth, his body shud­der­ing a bit, his grasp of my hair loos­en­ing. I make sure he is nice and clean, lick­ing and suck­ing more, mak­ing sure he has fin­ished before I crawl back up and he holds me to his chest.

“Good morn­ing Baby…”

Thats the way this morn­ing should have gone, but instead I lay here by myself hav­ing let the moment pass. As I said, not
every­thing goes as planned, but there is always another time.